Human Stupidity is Beyond Infinity

Complicated

Nobody said it was easy, but nobody said it was that hard, too. I'm using this quote so often recently *laughs* maybe life is really that hard. It had been a hard time for me these days, especially this two weeks. The only thought I have recently is "Maybe if I'm pretty, I won't suffer that much". All my life, I never have this thought until last year. But life is cruel, and so does truth. Looking good makes life easier by at least 5%.

Fuck I'll just stop here.
Its too hard to begin.
Peace out.
For now.

Expect The Unexpected

She likes him, a lot. The only thing that she can do is running after him. She felt bad about herself, she has acnes all over her face. She thought that she was ugly. Where ever he goes, you can spot her at the back, following him. She's looking at him all the time, but she will look away when his eyes met hers. Although her heart beats like a freak whenever she walked pass him, she never confess her feelings to him. He deserves a better one, she thought. So this one day, he caught her gaze, again. This time, he walked straight towards her. She panicked. "When will you stop doing this?" he asked. She panicked even more, "I don't know what are you talking about..." she said. "You like me, don't you?" he said. "No," she said. He smiled gently, and walked closer to her. His cologne smell, she thought. He raised his eyebrow, "I had a crush on someone already," he said. "Oh, congratulations then," she replied him with a smile. "Do you wanna know who is it?" "No," and she turned her back against him. Tears start dropping as she walked away. She didn't know that being rejected by someone she loved will hurt so much. It kills, somehow. She wanted to run, but he grabbed her and pulled her into his arms. "Seriously girl..." while resting his chin on her forehead, he asked "can you be my girlfriend?" Her mind went blank at that moment. She looked at him in the eyes. He pulled a huge smile, the smile that she fell for, and rubbed off her tears. "Yes," and she buried her head into his chest.

Parents. I guess ?

Do you know how hard life is with unsupportive parents? Its like you don't wanna die but they force you to. Its super hard ok SUPER HARD. Never tell us how amazing your parents are, we don't know that and apparently don't care about that. When I was a kid, I wanna learn ballet. My mom said " You saw those dancing kid on tv right? All fat fat one you wanna be like them? " As a child obviously I'll say no. Look at how Asian parents kill future generation's dream. Fantastic. As I grew older, I realise that it's all about money. Only richass kid can follow their dreams, and us can only get a kick in our butt follow by " go study lah, play everyday " Without money, the only thing you can do is study. No matter you like it or not. You get a F, study. You get a B, study. You get an A, or 100, study, aim for 101. I'm going out of topic sorry. So recently I pick up a new hobby which is drawing and currently my mom is not being very unsupportive. She is just being unsupportive. My brother doesn't have this kinda kissure cause he doesn't have a life. I'm not kidding bruh. His life is about video games. I can't get to do whatever I like. When I can, she just have to be harsh on me. This doesn't mean that I don't study ok I do. Just, not that much. I only study two weeks before exam. And after exam there she goes again. Study, study, study. IT'S LIKE THE DAY AFTER EXAM YOU KNOW WHAT THE FUCK. I hate this life fucking sick. You know what, I study, not for future sake. I study to get good results, in order to get scholarship, and run far far away from Malaysia, from my family. RUN YOU KNOW RUN. Let her be unsupportive as fuck I'll run. Oh yea, she said, " if I used my money on you, you have to pay for your brother's expenses." HAHAHHAHAH LMAO i'm only three years older than my brother for fuck sake where do I find money. Not even rob can have so much. I don't even know how to name this post lmao I campur everything inside. What's the point of this post again?

I Hate Myself

"People won't always tell you how they feel, but they'll show you. Pay attention."

So recently I started to think about my social life and I'm very sure that I'm a 100% jerk. I judge. I insult. I joke. I'm a total asshole. I joke around just to impress those few who I thought was my best friend but nah. Not their fault. My fault. My bad. Cause I thought. Can't blame them. Out of 10 there must be 3 that hate you, 5 that don't know you and 2 that like you. AND NOW. those 2 that I thought are my friends turn their backs to me HAHAHAHAHA such a fun time isn't it. I mean from all your freaking attitude you don't tell me I'm your friend okey. That's not how you treat your friend. If that's how you treat your friends, then you deserve no friendships. I don't come clean to everyone okey we all have something we wanna bury deep inside our goddamn heart you don't tell me what to do or what to say it's my freaking rights. Since we had already been apart for so long, why not we stop here before I start to hate you and curse you till death. We are done okey it's the end. 

Human Beings In School Nowadays

alicia , becca and cassie are good friends . so one day , alicia decided to tell becca and cassie a secret . becca and cassie were like , what is it ?? alicia smiled and walk away . so becca was guessing what's going on while cassie just decided to keep quite as she understands that when alicia wants to speak it out , she sure will . another day , alicia decided to speak it out , she told becca , without cassie knowing . life moves on . one day , becca and cassie were chit-chating while alicia was not around . becca said , " that sceret uh  .. oh wait sorry alicia told me not to tell anyone " cassie said , " hahah , but you already did ? " becca keep shaking her head and said , " NOOOO I DIDN'T " cassie smiled and walked away .

so this is the story .

i'm pretty sure you guys have that one friend who always do this .

it's like , she accidentally speaks something she was supposed to keep , and she be like aiya no lah maybe your ears went wrong , or something like that .

well you know what ? once you already started , JUST FCUKING SHUT IT BEFORE IT SPILLS TOO MUCH . don't go like aiya no lah aiya your eyes something wrong la , JUST DONT . it's fucking annoying . we won't mind if you accidentally started it but WE WILL MIND if you act like a poop . cause you motherfcuker will indirectly make someone hates the one who told you this secret .

GET THAT TO YOUR MIND HUMAN .

anyway here's my advice people , keep some secrets only to yourself okey .

there's always a motherfcuker who was born to motherfcuking betray you and make other motherfcukers turn their back against you just to ruin your motherfcuking life .

just admit it okey , people nowadays judge by their ears .

CAUSE I'M SOMETIMES LIKE THAT TOO .

k so this post is basically , uhm , the story is from a book and uh , yah im just writing some of my opinion cause i swag :)