I Hate Myself

"People won't always tell you how they feel, but they'll show you. Pay attention."

So recently I started to think about my social life and I'm very sure that I'm a 100% jerk. I judge. I insult. I joke. I'm a total asshole. I joke around just to impress those few who I thought was my best friend but nah. Not their fault. My fault. My bad. Cause I thought. Can't blame them. Out of 10 there must be 3 that hate you, 5 that don't know you and 2 that like you. AND NOW. those 2 that I thought are my friends turn their backs to me HAHAHAHAHA such a fun time isn't it. I mean from all your freaking attitude you don't tell me I'm your friend okey. That's not how you treat your friend. If that's how you treat your friends, then you deserve no friendships. I don't come clean to everyone okey we all have something we wanna bury deep inside our goddamn heart you don't tell me what to do or what to say it's my freaking rights. Since we had already been apart for so long, why not we stop here before I start to hate you and curse you till death. We are done okey it's the end.